It’s been awhile…Let’s catch up
It’s been such a long time since I have written anything, so I thought it would be rude to get right back into it without bringing you all up to speed on what’s been going on. The last time I wrote was in August so let’s start from there.
August:
My birthday month! So much happened this month, however, I remember when the month started I was in a really, really dark place. I was struggling to act like myself or do much of anything except go to work, come home and lay in bed until the next day when the routine would start over again. Even in situations that would normally be fun for me, I found myself disengaged from everything and everyone. My body was present, but my mind wasn’t. I felt like someone else was in control of my body while my mind wanted to be somewhere totally different. I remember one night when I was out having pizza with family everyone was carrying on conversation and having a good time. I felt like I wasn’t present at all. I didn’t hear any of the conversation nor did I laugh at any of the jokes that were said. I’m normally not one to stay quiet when I am out with friends or family. It was a weird thing to experience and I don’t really know how to put it into words. I was also very hard on myself. I felt myself slipping in that very well-known depression and I was so frustrated for allowing myself to get that down again. It wasn’t until the week before my birthday I finally got a pick me up and it involved Disneyland of course.
I would be lying if I said the Disney August trip wasn’t one of the best trips I’ve ever been on. Yes, I’ve been to Disneyland hundreds of times, but each trip is different. This one was so needed for me and I am so glad I went. Thank you, Jake and Isabella, for getting me back on track to being myself again and making me laugh till my stomach hurt. Love you guys.
My birthday was also what ultimately brought me back to being myself again. We left for Pinecrest on my actual birthday. Zach and I decided to take the dog this year and my parents also joined us! It was a lot of fun and very relaxing weekend. This was my second year in a row going on the annual Looney trip and I look forward too many, many more.
September:
I started going back to school again after the summer break. I realized how much I love the routine of school. I love the consistency and I love being on a schedule. I realized that not having the consistency, the routine and the schedule is what ultimately brought back my depression over the summer. With that being said… THIS MONTH! Omg. This month Diego and I saw Sam Smith…front row. It was one of the best experiences I’ve ever had. I will never ever forget about that night and I am so fortunate and blessed I was able to experience this.
September was also the month that I realized I needed a hobby and something fun to do rather than work and school. I decided I would make Disney Ears again since I loved doing it before. I never ever thought It would actually take off. Before I knew it, my Instagram was blowing up with inquiries and I was making 8-12 pairs a weekend. I loved it. It was something fun to do and I was also making a decent amount of money which helped me out immensely. Thank you to everyone who has supported my Ears page or who has bought ears from me!
October:
This month was incredibly busy for Zach and me. We kicked off the beginning of the month with a Disney trip with Maddy and Liz. This trip was probably Zach and I’s last trip to Disney together for a while since we decided it’s time to start doing the adult thing and save money for our future. A hard decision for us but, it’s the right one. We also threw a Halloween costume party. This took up the majority of my time in October, but it was worth it. It was so much fun planning and organizing this party. Thank you to everyone who came, and I hope to see you all again next year when we do it all over again J
October is also Domestic Violence Awareness Month and the One-year anniversary of when I shared my story with all of you. Thank you for your never-ending support. Thank you for all of your kind words and thank you for watching me fly this past year. So much has changed since I shared my story with all of you and I am so grateful. So, thank you again, from the bottom of my heart.
November:
Zach’s birthday month! So much happened this month and I would honestly say it was a tough month for us. Thanksgiving came and went and in the same week, we found ourselves packing up and moving. It was hectic and stressful, but everything worked out. Zach’s birthday was shortly after we moved. My sweet man deserves to have the best birthday possible in the history of birthdays and I feel terrible that he got the complete opposite. Zach’s cat was mauled by two Pitbull’s the morning of his birthday and had to be put down later that night. I am not at all a cat person, but I will say that I adored Hoagie and I miss him walking me from my car to the front porch every single day. It’s safe to say that November was a really hard month for us and I am so glad it’s over. Onward and Upward.
December:
This month started with another Disney trip for me! I almost forgot how beautiful Disneyland is for the Holidays. I had a great time on this trip and, again, it was much needed. There’s just something about Disney that makes me whole again and makes me, well, me. After Disney it was time for Finals. Not gonna lie, finals hit me, hard. I was so grumpy and exhausted for the majority of December until school was over. It was hard getting into the Christmas spirit and it didn’t even feel like Christmas until the day of. The year wrapped up on a good note which left me hopeful for an amazing 2019.
If you have read this far, thank you for reading about my mundane life. I just thought it would be out of place to get right back into it without explaining where I’ve been the past four months. I am looking forward to blogging again, as this is kind of a stress reliever for me. Thank you for reading and coming along with me in my journey called life. Cheers to 2019!
Love Always,
Tay
